denizi özlemiş küçük balık.
   
tanıdık istiridyeleri, kum tanelerini ve dalgaların sesini. deniz kokusunu.


neyse ki doğru dizeler var: 






"gökyüzü bir çocuk resmi
çağla yeşili ve pespembe
cam buğularının her yerine, her yerine adını yazdım.




1 avuç yıldız gökyüzünde, ayışığı da benden hediye
cam buğularının her yerine 
her yerine adını yazdım


alabildiğine yaşama sevinci, verebildiğine kırılgan sevgi.

cam buğularının her yerine 

her yerine adını yazdım."

"ama sen sorumlusun."

bu hallerimden sen sorumlusun =)

"a friend took me to the most amazing place the other day. it's called the augusteum. octavian augustus built it to house his remains. when the barbarians came they trashed it a long with everything else. the great augustus, rome's first true great emperor. how could he have imagined that rome, the whole world as far as he was concerned, would be in ruins. it's one of the quietest, loneliest places in rome. the city has grown up around it over the centuries. it feels like a precious wound, a heartbreak you won't let go of because it hurts too good. we all want things to stay the same. settle for living in misery because we're afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. then i looked at around to this place, at the chaos it has endured - the way it has been adapted, burned, pillaged and found a way to build itself back up again. and i was reassured, maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic, it's just the world that is, and the real trap is getting attached to any of it. ruin is a gift. ruin is the road to transformation."